A
Course in Miracles
Chapter
9 - Grandeur vs Grandiosity
Grandeur
is of God, and only of Him. Therefore, it is in you.
Whenever
you become aware of it, however dimly, you abandon the ego automatically
because, in the presence of the grandeur of God, the meaninglessness
of the ego becomes perfectly apparent.
Though
it does not understand this, the ego believes that its “enemy”
has struck, and attempts to offer gifts to induce you to return
to its “protection.”
Self-inflation
of the ego is its alternative to the grandeur of God.
Which
will you choose?
Grandiosity is always a cover for despair. It is without
hope because it is not real.
It
is an attempt to counteract your littleness, based on the belief
that the littleness is real. Without
this belief, grandiosity is meaningless, and you could not possibly
want it.
The
essence of grandiosity is competitiveness, because it always involves
attack. It is a delusional attempt to outdo, but not to
undo.
We
said before that the ego vacillates between suspiciousness and viciousness.
It
remains suspicious as long as you despair of yourself.
It
shifts to viciousness whenever you will not tolerate
self-abasement and seek relief. Then it offers you the illusion
of attack as a solution.
The ego does not know the difference between grandeur and grandiosity
because it does not know the difference between miracle impulses
and ego-alien beliefs of its own.
We
once said that the ego is aware of threat, but does not
make distinctions between two entirely different kinds of threat
to its existence.
Its
own profound sense of vulnerability renders it incapable of judgment,
except in terms of attack. When
it experiences threat, its only decision is whether
- to
attack now, or
- to
withdraw to attack later.
If
you accept its offer of grandiosity, it will attack immediately.
If
you do not, it will wait.
Grandeur is Totally Without Illusions
The
ego is immobilized in the presence of God’s grandeur, because
His grandeur establishes your freedom.
Even
the faintest hint of your reality literally drives the
ego from your mind because of its complete lack of investment in
it.
Grandeur
is totally without illusions, and because it is real, it is compellingly
convincing.
Yet
the conviction of reality will not remain with you unless you
do not allow the ego to attack it.
The
ego will make every effort to recover and mobilize its energies
against your release.
It
will tell you that you are insane, and argue that grandeur cannot
be a real part of you, because of the littleness in which it believes.
Yet your grandeur is not delusional because
you did not make it.
You
have made grandiosity—and are afraid of it because it is a
form of attack—but your grandeur is of God, Who created it
out of His Love.
From
your grandeur you can only bless, because your grandeur is your
abundance. By blessing, you hold it in your minds, protecting it
from illusions and keeping
yourself in the Mind of God.
Remember
always that you cannot be anywhere except in the Mind of God.
When
you forget this, you will despair and you will attack.
The
ego depends soley on your willingness to tolerate it. If
you are willing to look upon your grandeur, you cannot
despair, and therefore you cannot want the ego.
Your
Grandeur is God’s Answer to The Ego
Your
grandeur is God’s answer to the ego, because it is true.
Littleness
and grandeur cannot co-exist, nor is it possible for them to alternate
in your awareness.
Littleness
and grandiosity can and must alternate in your awareness,
since both are untrue, and are therefore on the same level. Being
the level of shift, it is experienced as shifting, and extremes
are its essential characteristic.
Truth and littleness are denials of each other because
grandeur is truth.
Truth
does not vacillate; it is always true.
When
grandeur slips away from you, you have replaced it with something
you have made. Perhaps it is the belief in littleness;
perhaps it is the belief in grandiosity.
Yet
it must be insane because it is not true.
Your
grandeur will never deceive you, but your illusions always
will.
Illusions
are deceptions. You
cannot triumph, but you are exalted. And in your exalted
state you seek others like you and rejoice with them.
It is easy to distinguish grandeur from grandiosity because love
is returned, but pride is not. Pride will not produce miracles,
and therefore will deprive you of your true witnesses to
your reality.
Truth
is not obscure nor hidden, but its obviousness to you lies in the
joy you bring to its witnesses, who show it to you. They attest
to your grandeur, but they cannot attest to pride because pride
is not shared.
God
wants you to behold what He created because it is His
joy.
Can your grandeur be arrogant when God Himself witnesses to it?
And
what can be real that has no witnesses?
What
good can come of it? And
if no good can come of it, the Holy Spirit cannot use it.
What
He cannot transform to the Will of God does not exist
at all.
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