A
Course in Miracles
Workbook
For Students
Lesson
153 - In
my defenselessness my safety lies.
You who feel threatened
by this changing world, its twists of fortune and its bitter jests,
its brief relationships and all the "gifts" it merely
lends to take away again, attend this lesson well.
The world provides
no safety.
It is rooted in attack
and all its gifts of seeming safety are illusory deceptions. It
attacks and then attacks again. No peace of mind is possible where
danger threatens thus.
The world gives rise
but to defensiveness.
For threat
brings anger, anger makes attack seem reasonable, honestly provoked,
and righteous in the name of self-defense. Yet
is defensiveness a double threat. For it attests to (imagined) weakness
and sets up a system of defense that cannot work. Now are the weak
still further undermined, for there is treachery without, and still
a greater treachery within.
The mind is now confused
and knows not where to turn to find escape from its imaginings.
It is as if a circle
held it fast, wherein another circle bound it and another in that
one, until escape no longer can be hoped for nor obtained. Attack,
defense; defense, attack, become the circles of the hours and the
days that bind the mind in heavy bands of steel with iron overlaid,
returning but to start again. There seems to be no break nor ending
in the ever-tightening grip of imprisonment upon the mind.
Defenses are the
costliest of all the prices which the ego would exact. In them lies
madness in a form so grim that hope of sanity seems but to be an
idle dream, beyond the possible. The sense of threat the world encourages
is so much deeper and so far beyond the frenzy and intensity of
which you can conceive that you have no idea of all the devastation
it has wrought. You are its slave. You know not what you do in fear
of it. You do not understand how much you have been made to sacrifice
who feel its iron grip upon your heart.
You do not realize
what you have done to sabotage the holy peace of God by your defensiveness.
For you behold the
Son of God as but a victim to attack ...
- by fantasies,
- by dreams, and
- by illusions he has
made;
yet helpless in their
presence, needful only of defense by still more fantasies and dreams
by which illusions of his safety comfort him.
Defenselessness
is strength. It testifies
to recognition of the Christ in you.
Perhaps you will recall
the course maintains that choice is always made between His strength
and your own weakness seen apart from Him. Defenselessness can never
be attacked because it recognizes strength so great attack is folly
or a silly game a tired child might play when he becomes too sleepy
to remember what he wants.
Defensiveness is weakness.
It proclaims you have
denied the Christ and come to fear His Father's anger. What can
save you now from your delusion of an angry god whose fearful image
you believe you see at work in all the evils of the world? What
but illusions could defend you now, when it is but illusions which
you fight?
We will not play such
childish games today. For our true purpose is to save the world,
and we would not exchange for foolishness the endless joy our function
offers us. We would not let our happiness slip by because a fragment
of a senseless dream happened to cross our minds, and we mistook
the figures in it for the Son of God; its tiny instant for eternity.
We look past dreams
today, and recognize that we need no defense because we are created
unassailable, without all thought or wish or dream in which attack
has any meaning. Now we cannot fear, for we have left all fearful
thoughts behind. And in defenselessness we stand secure, serenely
certain of our safety now, sure of salvation; sure we will fulfill
our chosen purpose as our ministry extends its holy blessing through
the world.
Be still a moment,
and in silence think how holy is your purpose, how secure you rest,
untouchable within its light. God's ministers have chosen that the
truth be with them. Who is holier than they? Who could be surer
that his happiness is fully guaranteed? And who could be more mightily
protected? What defense could possibly be needed by the ones who
are among the chosen ones of God by His election and their own as
well?
It is the function
of God’s ministers to help their brothers choose as they
have done.
God has elected all,
but few have come to realize His Will is but their own. And while
you fail to teach what you have learned, salvation waits and darkness
holds the world in grim imprisonment. Nor will you learn that light
has come to you, and your escape has been accomplished. For you
will not see the light until you offer it to all your brothers.
As they take it from your hands, so will you recognize it as your
own.
Salvation can be
thought of as a game that happy children play.
It was designed by
One Who loves His children, and Who would replace their fearful
toys with joyous games, which teach them that the game of fear is
gone. His game instructs in happiness because there is no loser.
Everyone who plays must win, and in his winning is the gain to everyone
ensured. The game of fear is gladly laid aside when children come
to see the benefits salvation brings.
You who have played
that...
- you are lost to
hope,
- abandoned by your
Father,
- left alone in terror
in a fearful world made mad by sin and guilt;
be happy now.
That game is over.
Now a quiet time has come in which we put away the toys of guilt
and lock our quaint and childish thoughts of sin forever from the
pure and holy minds of Heaven's children and the Son of God. We
pause but for a moment more to play our final, happy game upon this
earth. And then we go to take our rightful place where truth (of
what we are) abides and games are meaningless.
So is the story ended.
Let this day bring the last chapter closer to the world that everyone
may learn the tale he reads of...
- terrifying destiny,
- defeat of all his
hopes,
- his pitiful defense
against a vengeance he can not escape,
was but his own deluded
fantasy.
God's ministers have
come to waken him from the dark dreams this story has evoked in
his confused, bewildered memory of this distorted tale. God's Son
can smile at last on learning that it is not true.
Practice
Instructions
Today we practice
in a form we will maintain for quite a while. (Lessons 153-170)
1.
We will begin each day by giving our attention to the daily
thought as long as possible. Five minutes now becomes the least
we give to preparation for a day in which salvation is the only
goal we have. Ten would be better, 15 better still. And as distraction
ceases to arise to turn us from our purpose, we will find that half
an hour is too short a time to spend with God. Nor will we willingly
give less at night in gratitude and joy.
2.
Each hour adds to our increasing peace, as we remember to
be faithful to the Will we share with God. At times, perhaps, a
minute, even less, will be the most that we can offer as the hour
strikes. Sometimes we will forget. At other times the business of
the world will close on us, and we will be unable to withdraw a
little while and turn our thoughts to God.
Yet when we can, we
will observe our trust as ministers of God in hourly remembrance
of our mission and His Love. And we will quietly sit by and wait
on Him and listen to His Voice and learn what He would have us do
the hour that is yet to come, while thanking Him for all the gifts
He gave us in the one gone by.
In time, with practice,
you will never cease to think of Him and hear His loving Voice guiding
your footsteps into quiet ways, where you will walk in true defenselessness,
for you will know that Heaven goes with you. Nor would you keep
your mind away from Him a moment, even though your time is spent
in offering salvation to the world. Think you He will not make this
possible for you who chose to carry out His plan for the salvation
of the world and yours?
3.
Today our theme is our defenselessness. We clothe ourselves in it
as we prepare to meet the day. We rise up strong in Christ and let
our weakness disappear as we remember that His strength abides in
us.
“In my defenselessness
my safety lies.”
We will remind ourselves
that He remains beside us through the day and never leaves our weakness
unsupported by His strength.
4.
We call upon His strength each time we feel the threat of our defenses
undermine our certainty of purpose. We will pause a moment as He
tells us,
"I am here."
Your practicing will
now begin to take the earnestness of love to help you keep your
mind from wandering from its intent.
Be not afraid nor
timid. There can be no doubt that you will reach your final goal.
The ministers of God can never fail because the love and strength
and peace that shine from them to all their brothers come from Him.
These are His gifts to you.
Defenselessness is
all you need to give Him in return.
You lay aside but
what was never real to look on Christ and see His sinlessness. |