A
Course in Miracles
Chapter
29 - The Awakening
The
Forgiving Dream
The
slave of idols is a willing slave, for willing he must be to let
himself bow down in worship to what has no life, and seek for power
in the powerless.
What
happened to the holy Son of God that this could be his wish; to
let himself fall lower than the stones upon the ground, and look
to idols that they raise him up?
Hear,
then, your story in the dream you made, and ask yourself if it be
not the truth that you believe that it is not a dream.
A
dream of judgment came into the mind that God created perfect
as Himself, and in that dream was Heaven changed to hell, and
God made enemy unto His Son.
How
can God’s Son awaken from the dream?
It
is a dream of judgment, so must he judge not, and he will waken,
for the dream will seem to last while he is part of it. Judge
not, for he who judges will have need of idols which will hold the
judgment off from resting on himself, nor can he kno w the Self
he has condemned. Judge
not, because you make yourself a part of evil dreams where idols
are your “true” identity, and your salvation from the
judgment laid in terror and in guilt upon yourself.
All figures in the dream are idols made to save you from the dream,
yet they are part of what they have been made to save you from.
Thus
does an idol keep the dream alive and terrible, for
who could wish for one unless he were in terror and despair? And
this (terror and despair) the idol represents, and so its worship
is the worship of despair and terror and the dream from which they
come.
Judgment
is an injustice to God’s Son, and it is justice that, who
judges him, will not escape the penalty he laid upon himself within
the dream he made.
God
knows of justice, not of penalty. But in the dream of judgment,
you attack and are condemned, and wish to be the slave of idols
which are interposed between your judgment and the penalty it brings.
There can be no salvation in the dream as you are dreaming it, for
idols must be part of it to save you from what you believe you have
accomplished and have done to make you sinful, and put out the Light
within you.
Little
children, It (the Light) is there. You
do but dream. And idols are
the toys you dream you play with.
Who
has need of toys but children?
They
pretend they rule the world, and give their toys the power to move
about, and talk and think and feel, and speak for them.
Yet
everything their toys appear to do is in the minds of those who
play with them, but they are eager to forget that they made up the
dream in which their toys are real, nor recognize their wishes are
their own.
Nightmares are childish dreams.
The
toys have turned against the child who thought he made them real.
Yet
can a dream attack? Or
can a toy grow large and dangerous and fierce and wild?
This
does the child believe, because he fears his thoughts and gives
them to the toys instead, and
their reality becomes his own, because they seem to save him from
his thoughts. Yet do they keep
his thoughts alive and real, but seen outside himself, where they
can turn against him for his treachery to them.
He
thinks he needs them that he may escape his thoughts, because he
thinks the thoughts are real. And
so he makes of anything a toy, to make his world remain outside
himself and play that he is but a part of it.
There
is a time when childhood should be passed and gone forever. Seek
not to retain the toys of children. Put
them all away, for you have need of them no more.
The
dream of judgment is a children’s game in which the child
becomes the father, powerful, but with the little wisdom of a child.
What hurts him is destroyed; what
helps him, blessed. Except he
judges this as does a child, who does not know what hurts and what
will heal, and bad things seem
to happen, and he is afraid of all the chaos in a world he thinks
is governed by the laws he made. Yet
is the real world unaffected by the world he thinks is real, nor
have its laws been changed because he did not understand.
The
real world still is but a dream, except the figures have been changed;
they are not seen as idols which betray. It
is a dream in which no one is used to substitute for something else,
nor interposed between the thoughts the mind conceives and what
it sees. No
one is used for something he is not, for childish things have all
been put away, and what was once a dream of judgment now has changed
into a dream where all is joy, because that is the purpose which
it has. Only forgiving dreams can enter here, for time is almost
over and the forms which enter in the dream are now perceived as
brothers, not in judgment, but in love.
Forgiving
dreams have little need to last. They are not made to separate the
mind from what it thinks. They do not seek to prove the dream is
being dreamed by someone else. And in these dreams a melody is heard
which everyone remembers, though he has not heard it since before
all time began.
Forgiveness,
once complete, brings timelessness so close the song of Heaven can
be heard, not with the ears, but with the holiness which never left
the altar which abides forever deep within the Son of God. And when
he hears this song again, he knows he never heard it not. And
where is time, when dreams of judgment have been put away?
Whenever
you feel fear in any form—and you are fearful if you do
not feel a deep content, a certainty of help, a calm assurance
Heaven goes with you—be sure you made an idol and believe
it will betray you. For
beneath your hope that it will save you, lie the guilt and pain
of self-betrayal and uncertainty, so deep and bitter that the
dream cannot conceal completely all your sense of doom. Your
self-betrayal must result in fear, for fear is judgment, leading
surely to the frantic search for idols and for death.
Forgiving
dreams remind you that you live in safety and have not attacked
yourself, so do your childish
terrors melt away. And dreams become a sign that you have made
a new beginning, not another try to worship idols and to keep
attack. Forgiving dreams are
kind to everyone who figures in the dream, and so they bring the
dreamer full release from dreams of fear.
He
does not fear his judgment, for he has judged no one, nor has
sought to be released through judgment from what judgment must
impose. And all the while he
is remembering what he forgot when judgment seemed to be the way
to save him from its (judgment's) penalty.
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