A
Course in Miracles
Chapter
10 - God and the Ego
"Dynamics"
of the Ego
No
one can escape from illusions unless he looks at them, for not looking
is the way they are protected.
There
is no need to shrink from illusions, for they cannot be dangerous.
We
are ready to look more closely at the ego’s thought system
because, together, we have the lamp that will dispel it. And since
you realize you do not want it, you must be ready.
Let
us be very calm in doing this, for we are merely looking honestly
for truth.
The
“dynamics” of the ego will be our lesson for a while,
for we must look first at this to look beyond it since
you havemade it real. We
will undo this error quietly together, and then look beyond it to
truth.
What is healing but the removal of all that stands in the way
of knowledge (of what you really are)?
And
how else can one dispel illusions except by looking at them directly,
without protecting them?
Be
not afraid, therefore, for what you will be looking at is the source
of fear. But you have surely learned by now that fear is not real.
We have accepted the fact already that its effects can be dispelled
merely by denying their reality.
The
next step is obviously to recognize that what has no effects does
not exist.Laws
do not operate in a vacuum, and what leads to nothing has not
happened.
If
reality is recognized by its extension, what extends to nothing
cannot be real. Do
not be afraid, then, to look upon fear, for it cannot be seen. Clarity
undoes confusion by definition, and to look upon darkness through
light must dispel it.
Let
us begin this lesson in “ego dynamics” by understanding
that the term itself does not mean anything. In
fact, it contains exactly the contradiction in terms which makes
it meaningless. “Dynamics”
implies the power to do something. And the whole separation fallacy
lies in the belief that the ego has the power to do anything.
The
ego is fearful to you because you believe this. Yet the truth is
very simple;
All
Power is of God.
What
is not of Him has no power to do anything.
When
we look at the ego, then, we are not considering dynamics, but delusions.
We can surely regard a delusional system without fear, for it cannot
have any effects if its source is not true.
Fear
becomes more obviously inappropriate if one recognizes the ego’s
goal, which is so clearly senseless that any effort exerted on its
behalf is necessarily expended on nothing.
Egos
Goal is Autonomy
The
ego’s goal is quite explicitly ego automomy. From the beginning,
then, its purpose is to be
separate,
sufficient unto itself, and independent
of any power except its own.
This
is why it is the symbol of separation.
Every
idea has a purpose, and its purpose is always the natural extension
of what it is. Everything that stems from the ego is the natural
outcome of its central belief. And the way to undo its
results is merely to recognize that their source
is not natural, being out of accord with your TRUE nature.
We
once said that to will contrary to God is wishful thinking, and
not real willing.
His
Will is One because the extension of His Will cannot be unlike Itself.
The real conflict you experience, then, is between the ego’s
idle wishes and the Will of God, Which you share.
Can
this be a real conflict?
Yours
is the independence of creation, not of autonomy. Your whole creative
function lies in your complete dependence on God, Whose function
He shares with you. By His willingness to share it, He became as
dependent on you as you are on Him.
Do
not ascribe the ego’s arrogance to Him Who wills not to be
independent of you. He has included you in His Autonomy.
Can
you believe that autonomy is meaningful apart from Him?
The
belief in ego autonomy is costing you the
knowledge of your dependence on God in which your freedom lies.
The
ego sees all dependency as threatening, and has twisted even your
longing for God into a means of establishing itself. But
do not be deceived by its interpretation of your conflict.
The
ego always attacks on behalf of separation. Believing
it has the power to do this, it does nothing else, because its
goal of autonomy is nothing else.
The
ego is totally confused about reality, but it does not lose sight
of its goal. It is much more vigilant than you are because
it is perfectly certain of its purpose. You are confused
because you do not know yours.
What you must learn to recognize is that the last thing the ego
wishes you to realize is that YOU ARE AFRAID OF IT.
For
if the ego gives rise to fear, it is diminishing your independence
and weakening your power. Yet
its one claim to your allegiance is that it can give power
to you. Without this belief you would not listen to it at all.
How,
then, can its existence continue if you realize that, by
accepting it, you are belittling yourself and depriving yourself
of power?
The
Ego Minimizes Fear
The
ego can and does allow you to regard yourself as
- supercilious,
- unbelieving,
- “light-hearted,”
- distant,
- emotionally
shallow,
- callous,
- uninvolved,
and
- even
desperate,
but
not really AFRAID. Minimizing fear, but not its undoing, is the
ego’s constant effort, and is indeed the skill at which it
is very ingenious.
How
can it preach separation without upholding it through fear?
And
would you listen to it if you recognized this is what it is doing?
Your
recognition that whatever seems to separate you from God is only
fear, regardless of the form it takes and quite apart from how the
ego wants you to experience it, is therefore the basic ego threat.
Its
dream of autonomy is shaken to its foundation by this awareness.
For though you may countenance a false idea of independence, you
will NOT accept the cost of fear if you recognize it.
Yet
this is the cost, and the ego cannot minimize it. For if you overlook
love you are overlooking yourself, and you must fear unreality
because you have denied yourself. By
believing that you have successfully attacked truth (your oneness
with God), you are believing that attack has power.
Very
simply, then, you have become afraid of yourself. And
no one wills to learn what he believes would destroy him.
If
the ego’s goal of autonomy could be accomplished God’s
purpose could be defeated, and this IS impossible. Only by learning
what fear IS can you finally learn to distinguish the possible from
the impossible, and the false from the true.
According
to the ego’s teaching, its goal can be accomplished, and
God’s purpose can NOT.
According
to the Holy Spirit’s teaching, only God’s
purpose is accomplishment, and it is already accomplished.
God
is as dependent on you as you are on Him, because His autonomy encompasses
yours and is therefore incomplete without it. You
can only establish your autonomy by identifying with Him, and fulfilling
your function as it exists in truth.
The
ego believes that to accomplish its goal is happiness. But
it is given you to know that God’s function is yours, and
happiness cannot be found apart from your JOINT will.
Recognize
only that the ego’s goal, which you have pursued quite
diligently, has merely brought you fear, and it becomes difficult
to maintain that fear IS happiness.
Upheld
by fear, this is what the ego would have you believe. Yet God’s
Son is not insane, and cannot believe it. Let
him but recognize it, and he will not accept it. For
- only
the insane would choose fear in place of love, and
- only
the insane could believe that love can be gained by attack.
But
the sane know that only attack could produce fear, from which the
Love of God completely protects them.
The
Ego Analyzes
The
ego analyzes; the Holy Spirit accepts. The appreciation of wholeness
comes only through acceptance, for to analyze means to separate
out.
The
attempt to understand totality by breaking it up
is clearly the characteristically contradictory approach of the
ego to everything.
Never forget that the ego believes that power, understanding and
truth lie in separation. And to establish this belief it must
attack.
Unaware
that the belief cannot be established, and obsessed with the conviction
that separation is salvation, the ego attacks everything it perceives
by breaking it up into small and disconnected parts, without meaningful
relationships, and thus without meaning.
The
ego will always substitute chaos for meaning, for if separation
is salvation, harmony is threat.
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